Procrastination

I'm sitting at my desk at work during my lunch break. I'm enjoying the sun that is coming through the window and warming me up. I can see blossoms on the trees outside and I'm generally feeling pretty good as the signs are pointing towards the start of spring.

I was thinking that I haven't really blogged a lot recently. So I decided to write something now. I think there's an ulterior motive because I really should be doing my reading for college tomorrow night. It was actually supposed to be done for last week's lecture but I didn't realise we had two chapters to read and only read one. No wonder the lecture didn't make as much sense as it should have done!

However, I do think it is pretty important for me to blog at the moment though. (Despite how important catching up with my reading is.) I haven't done any reflection for myself for awhile. For some reason I don't have the motivation and it has become a chore.

This is a real pity because it's such a valuable thing to have 'God time'. I wrote a 2000 word essay on quiet time last semester talking about how valuable this time was. I even meant what I wrote!

I also have a lot to think about and talk to God about. Decisions to be made and plans to sort out. I want to and I need to include God in those decisions and time with Him (Her) is the best way I know of doing that.

It used to be something I enjoyed. Now it just feels 'too hard'. Actually more 'draining' than 'hard'. Maybe I'm out of practice?

I really need to get past this mental block and enjoy a quiet time once again. Anyone go any suggestions? I guess I'll just have to prioritize and keep trying.